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candylandSorry I'm behind on replying to comments and other people's entries again, guys. I'll catch up again soon, I promise. Just...yeah.
Last night, I spent five hours on my Visual Basic assignment. FIVE. Two of those hours were me staring at my computer screen, trying everything I could think of to make it all work like it was supposed to, and the other three were Brendan, my computer programming angel, walking me through all three of the problems step by bleepin' step. Yes, it took three hours for that. Then I did rounds and went to bed.
My alarm clock went wonky this morning, so I have no idea how I was up on time for my one-on-one with my RD. We talked over breakfast--it was lovely, not gonna lie. She's been gone for a couple of weeks, first on vacation and then on a retreat, so we got caught up on the events of the last couple of weeks. Then I went over and practiced piano, always a joyous occasion. Pretty sure I rocked out on my lesson today.
I also got two very awesome letters today--one saying that I've been accepted to the student teaching program, and the other saying my formal request to teach outside the fifty mile radius of campus has been approved. Which means I can hopefully get the secondary placement I want. We'll just keep our fingers crossed.
Worked on the girls piece in choir again today, too--it's really coming along. They're being awesome and respectful and working hard for me, and I really appreciate that. It's called "Windchimes." Very pretty. Here's hoping it goes well for the concert.
I just got back from the fall play here. It's called The Boys Next Door, and it's about four mentally handicapped men living in an apartment together, and the man (Jack) who watches out for them and supervises them. It was a very powerful piece, really--the acting was amazing, especially the guy who played Lucien, a grown man with the mental capacity of a five year old. And you genuinely believed that he was who he said he was--he was Lucien P. Smith, and he had a library card with his name on it, and it was green.
There were a lot of moments where we all laughed...but I think a lot of us were wondering if we should be laughing. I mean, some of it was genuinely cute, and there were moments where I would have laughed out loud no matter who said it. It was an amazing play and an amazing performance...I just can't shake the feeling that it's somehow one of the saddest things I've ever seen. I did laugh. And I cried, too. I just didn't know how to react to all of it.
I feel really strange right now, and I'm not even sure how to describe it. I don't know...it feels like I'm thinking about everything in the world right now, and yet my head feels completely empty. I feel...heavy? Is that a good word? It's the best I can come up with. They talk about having the weight of the world on your shoulders...that's kind of what it feels like, and I don't know why. I just...gah, I don't even know anymore.
I don't know...maybe I should just sleep and hope it goes away in the morning.
Last night, I spent five hours on my Visual Basic assignment. FIVE. Two of those hours were me staring at my computer screen, trying everything I could think of to make it all work like it was supposed to, and the other three were Brendan, my computer programming angel, walking me through all three of the problems step by bleepin' step. Yes, it took three hours for that. Then I did rounds and went to bed.
My alarm clock went wonky this morning, so I have no idea how I was up on time for my one-on-one with my RD. We talked over breakfast--it was lovely, not gonna lie. She's been gone for a couple of weeks, first on vacation and then on a retreat, so we got caught up on the events of the last couple of weeks. Then I went over and practiced piano, always a joyous occasion. Pretty sure I rocked out on my lesson today.
I also got two very awesome letters today--one saying that I've been accepted to the student teaching program, and the other saying my formal request to teach outside the fifty mile radius of campus has been approved. Which means I can hopefully get the secondary placement I want. We'll just keep our fingers crossed.
Worked on the girls piece in choir again today, too--it's really coming along. They're being awesome and respectful and working hard for me, and I really appreciate that. It's called "Windchimes." Very pretty. Here's hoping it goes well for the concert.
I just got back from the fall play here. It's called The Boys Next Door, and it's about four mentally handicapped men living in an apartment together, and the man (Jack) who watches out for them and supervises them. It was a very powerful piece, really--the acting was amazing, especially the guy who played Lucien, a grown man with the mental capacity of a five year old. And you genuinely believed that he was who he said he was--he was Lucien P. Smith, and he had a library card with his name on it, and it was green.
There were a lot of moments where we all laughed...but I think a lot of us were wondering if we should be laughing. I mean, some of it was genuinely cute, and there were moments where I would have laughed out loud no matter who said it. It was an amazing play and an amazing performance...I just can't shake the feeling that it's somehow one of the saddest things I've ever seen. I did laugh. And I cried, too. I just didn't know how to react to all of it.
I feel really strange right now, and I'm not even sure how to describe it. I don't know...it feels like I'm thinking about everything in the world right now, and yet my head feels completely empty. I feel...heavy? Is that a good word? It's the best I can come up with. They talk about having the weight of the world on your shoulders...that's kind of what it feels like, and I don't know why. I just...gah, I don't even know anymore.
I don't know...maybe I should just sleep and hope it goes away in the morning.
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Date: 2006-11-03 05:33 am (UTC)That does sound like a very powerful play! I'd like to see it sometime, if I get the chance.
Weird feelings like that are frustrating. I woke up in a very bad mood. XD; Luckily it went away by now. But I know I have some days where I feel really glum for hours and I don't have any idea why.