AAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH...

[candyland]

Mom kept me holed up in my room all day today. Cleaning... >_>

Here's where I hit a dilemma: I've got a bunch of stuff that needs to go in/on my desk. But in order to get to my desk, I need to be able to get my clothes off it and put them away somewhere. However, I don't have enough drawer space to put the clothes away, and the bar in my closet is starting to bow, so I'm kinda trying to watch the weight there. However, Dad says they're going to give me Grandma's bedroom set, which has a dresser and a high-boy, which means more dresser space!

...but in order to move the furniture, I need to get my room cleaned. Which means I need to get that stuff put away in my desk. BEHOLD, THE VICIOUS CIRCLE OF ME SUCKING AT CLEANING MY ROOM!!! D:

I'm thinking about just dumping the clothes somewhere else until we can move furniture. That would make me uber-happy ^_^

Aaaaaaaand in fic-news...god, I realize I haven't updated my MKR fic in a long time, but the anonymous reviews bugging me about it are starting to get a little annoying--especially because I can't reply to tell them that I'M FRIGGIN' WORKING ON IT!! Seriously, the next chapter is about half-done.

Plus...honestly, I don't enjoy updating that story because there's a couple of people who seem to feel that telling me I have good grammar/spelling and then spend another five paragraphs nit-picking about every little thing I write in the given chapter somehow equals constructive criticism. If it bugs you that much, don't freakin' read it--because getting pecked at for every teeny tiny thing that YOU think is wrong in my story is seriously killing my muse. I want concrit--if I just wanted criticism, I'd talk to my sister...speaking of whom, I'm seriously getting pissed off.



Today she slapped me on the arm because I brushed against her when she was going down the stairs and I was going up (and apparently, she didn't want to be touched). When I asked her what the hell that was for, she said, "You had it coming." She's apparently not happy unless she has criticized everything I say or do, and/or managed to destroy anything that brings any little semblance of joy into my life.

Remember Talk Like a Pirate Day? I wished her a happy one, and she kinda rolled her eyes at me. When I was sitting behind her in choir later, I turned to another friend and wished her a Happy Talk Like a Pirate Day...and Little Sister whips around and starts laying into me about how stupid I am and how I need to shut up. And then when I snap back that I wasn't even talking to her, she tells me to stop being so pissy and turns back around. And then later she got mad when I told her that I didn't want to talk to her.

My music taste is not the same as hers. Therefore, my music sucks, and she will tell me so at every possible interval. Same goes for movies. Basically, if my taste is not exactly the same as hers, my taste sucks. WTF?

I love my sister. But I really wish she would go the hell away sometimes. Seriously, I am so fed up with her "I'm trying to be cutesy" antics and her constant babbling stories that make absolutely zero sense. I'm sick of sitting down to a meal and not being able to get a single word in edge-wise (went to dinner with her once, and I managed to get in about ten words for the entire HOUR because she wouldn't stop repeating the same story over and over again). And I'm REALLY FUCKING TIRED of having every little thing I say or do get slammed and criticized, and then have her try to blame it on me, that's it's somehow my fault that she can't ever shut her fucking mouth and let things be.

I want her to go back to campus--she's been home for two days, and I'm already at my breaking point with her. And I think Mom is too, given the amount of yelling and arguing that's been going on as of late. I want her gone, and then I feel sort of bad for wanting her gone because goddammit, she's my sister.

Still wish she'd go back to school, though...



EDIT: Guys...my jump-drive is made of friggin' STEEL. It was in my pocket and went through the washing machine AND the dryer...and still works like a piece o' key lime pie. YAAAAAAAAY!!! :D :D :D

Comments

[jeva-chan.livejournal.com]

All I can say to your post is ditto and the only thing you can really do is try to be above her petty quarrels.

And wtf with your jumpdrive XDD

[candy--chan.livejournal.com]

It's hard--I sometimes think the kid LIVES to pick fights >.>

MY JUMP-DRIVE IS MADE OF AWESOME AND WIN!

[lucindathemaid.livejournal.com]

That is a cycle! Um... when in doubt, dump the clothes on the floor? XD (In such a way that they won't get wrinkled, of course. Sometimes I get too cluttered and form a little barricade around my desk.)

As an older sister, I know exactly how that feels. Sisters of any age can be frustrating (especially ones that are hair-triggered... *prods her own*). But I'm sure there's lots of overlap between you two, movies and music aside. And it's fine to want her to be gone, because even if you're angry now, she won't be gone in actuality, because she's your sister. And that's the beauty of the "can't live with, can't live without" paradox. :D

Shutting up now.

[candy--chan.livejournal.com]

I wonder if we could set a Move Day, and on that day I could just dump the clothes on the couch until all the furniture is moved, and then I'll put it away when I have nice shiny new drawer space in which to put it!

Yeah, you never know what'll set my sister off, the little demon...and I'd always been told that the paradox was, "Can't live with 'em, can't shoot 'em" in regards to boys >:P

[lucindathemaid.livejournal.com]

The first time I heard it it was in reference to siblings, but it can apply to anything and everything.

Moving furniture: can't live with it, can't live without it.

...

Or not.

[esaevian.livejournal.com]

I understand the cleaning the room bit. My room's been as messy as it is for a few years now...but I also have old playing cards, lego sets, and books in my drawers instead of clothes...oops :D

And your jump drive is awesome. I want one. And some key lime pie would be nice too.

[candy--chan.livejournal.com]

See, I have been known to clean an entire room in one afternoon...if I get going. If the motivation hits, I'm a whirlwind with a Swiffer duster. But if that motivation is not there, then I can maybe work at it for an hour before I become physically incapable of focusing on it anymore ^^;;

LEGOS ARE AWESOME!! :D :D :D My jump-drive is also awesome. And so is key lime pie. I use my pie icon in your honor now!! ^___^

[lightbird777.livejournal.com]

Hmm, the never-ending vicious cycle of trying to get a small place clean - I live in a one-room apartment so I feel your pain. Um, how about stuffing all the clothes under the bed so your desk is cleared off and then you can get other stuff into the desk drawers? Or you can shove everything into the closet and shut the door - no one will know.

As for the so-called "concrit" on your story, I wouldn't worry too much about it. You're an excellent writer and you're right - if they find so many things wrong with the story, why are they reading it? I've pretty much given up on fanfiction.net for the most part. A large majority of the people there are like twelve years old, or morons, and many of them have taste up their *@#%!. You should read some of the stupid reviews I've gotten from people who clearly didn't even understand the story.

[candy--chan.livejournal.com]

I think I might hafta shove 'em in the closet or something, 'cause I have nowhere to put them until I get shiny new dresser space. If this all goes through, I'll also have a bigger bed--this makes me happy! *wonders if Mom will let me pick out the bedding...*

That's what I've wondered! One of these reviews on the story before this one (what I'm working on now is the sequel) is seventeen chapters long. On the very last chapter, someone reviewed and gave me the "constructive line" of telling me that I had good spelling/grammar...and then proceeded to tell me why it had been so difficult for him/her to read since Chapter TEN and how I'd obviously aimed at a audience of young girls, blah blah blah. I went WTF? THEN WHY DID YOU KEEP READING??? And I'm not really writing for any specific audience most of the time--I just write.

... [/soapbox]

WTF? Your stories are AWESOME!! *bonks stupid people with mallet*

[jewelsybear1017.livejournal.com]

Yeah, little sis needs to go back to school. Hopefully she'll start to grow up in the next couple of months... Otherwise it sounds like summer's going to be hellish. I hope for your sake and your parents' that she does.

As for the whole cleaning conundrum, I think moving your clothes somewhere for a short time should be ok, and probably the best solution until you get stuff moved in. I've seen your room and it's a little small. And yay for a jump drive of steel!

[candy--chan.livejournal.com]

The sad part is that she HAS grown up a lot over the last couple of years. But yeah, if she doesn't get through this "phase" (and God willing, it will be a phase) soon, then one of us might not survive this summer.

I think we need to set a Move Day so I can get this all planned accordingly, 'cause a lot of stuff will have to be moved for this to work... *ponders*

*pets jump-drive*

[spirit-sage-333.livejournal.com]

Your sister is dumb. Sounds like she's going through eternal period time. Big brother is not pleased!

[candy--chan.livejournal.com]

I know she is D:

...I miss Big Brother T_T

[ran-mouri82.livejournal.com]

About the MKR fic woes: *sings* "It's your ficcy and you'll write what you want to!" When you want to, for that matter! Try thinking about it this way: they are not putting as much thought into what they're writing as you are. By saying "Update!" they're probably bored; by saying "You spell okay, but blah blabbity blah," they're saying they find something they don't like but are too lazy to balance thoughtful criticism with detailed strengths. Emphasis on lazy here.

And when it comes to lil' sis: being a lil' sis myself, I feel like a hypocrite, but she must be irritated over something and taking it out on you. No, there's no excuse for it. Yes, it's immature. But at least there's hope that she can overcome it in the future, like jewelsybear said. It sounds like you're genuinely trying to hang in there for your mom's sake and because you love your sis, which is awe-to-the-some . . . just keep trying! We'll still be here for as many future rants as it takes. ^^

TTYL, darlin'! ^__________^

[candy--chan.livejournal.com]

...you are so much love, you know that? :D

It's about half the minimum length I'd set for it (given that it's been so long, I wanted to make it a bit longer). And it's flattering that they like my story enough to poke me about it. But SHEEEEESH!!! They should take lessons from you--you are wonderful at concrit!

Well, Mom and I have been on really rocky terms lately over all sorts of little things...and then Sis starts piling on the crap as well D: I'll hang in there--not much else I can do--but this whole thing is still really pissing me off D:

*snuggles* MWAH! LUFFLES!!

And thank you for the reviews on my H/H Kisses! :D

[ran-mouri82.livejournal.com]

Awww, you're a sweetheart, too! *luffles*

It's hard to push yourself to write, make full chapters, etc., when the inspiration doesn't hit or you feel tired. And thanks! I do my best not to be lazy. ^^

Hope this troubling time doesn't last much longer. *snugs back*

And you're much welcome!

[gomath02.livejournal.com]

I hear you, my sister and I are the same way. She comes home this weekend.... ugh...

[candy--chan.livejournal.com]

Oh boy...hang in there, babe!